Schedule for 3rd term

Nakakabaliw pala gumawa ng sched... anyway, ang hirap.. i have to choose a cluster then fill that schedule with my floating subjects. Its a matter of choosing and thinking of a better schedule. A51, choosing that cluster would require me to go to school for 5 days.. and i dnt want to do that anymore, based on what i am experiencing now, keri naman but i would prefer having a rest day. but the advantage with this schedule s that i get to go to school not too early and leave school early.. super flat ng sched..  its organize and the subjects are the one that i really prefer to take up. not considering other people i would take this rather than getting a 4 day class. A52, my block mates had been my basis of taking that or wanting to get that, my section this term has been the best section for me. we're active, we re recite a lot that made our profs want us (in our own imagination :D ) and they're all going to A52, i would want to be with them kasi feeling ko mas magiging ok yung prof..  the profs are better. or they will act better. In this case, kahit magulo yung sched ko, the fact that i think I'm with "better" group of classmate.. ill be experiencing better major classes, i was thinking of taking up that cluster. ang labo. i dnt really know what o choose. i think at the end it will boil down to what i really want. Deep inside of me something's speaking, don't go somewhere just because everybody goes there.. i will be in good hands whenever i would want to go because I'm the righteousness of God. I am favored of the lord, i am wise,  I'm blessed so it doesn't really matter if I'm with them or not. After all its not them, its me who has God that will be the solution for everything and that would give out the best sched for me. i think now i have decided. :D we'll see tom. how things would go :D

again

Been planning to update this blog and write again, to write again in constant matter. But "time" doesn't permit me oo, or i was just too lazy and busy doing things that are not really worth wasting my time for. And now, been searching the net, wasting my time agin, opened my tumblr which i don't really do, saw a friend's blog and started to stalk her :D there are a lot of person wha has been influencing me, inspiring me and they didn't know about it and one of that person s her. I admire her :D look into her blog, her stories and everything.. and now I'm writing again, just realize that really i have to continue this thing :D

summer love

It's been a while since i last had my blog, so ill start updatingwhile waiting for my crack nail polish to dry up and crack :)

I had the best summer thus far! :)

I had few days of summer compared to other college students for my school is in a trimestral system, i had a month of summer break and a few weeks and days that i was able to spent productively. :)

My 1st week was spend chilling, making up with my friends, bonding with them and trying to make up for the days i haven't bond with my friends because of busy schedule. Those days are also time for residency for an organization i am part of. Also we get to spend some time in our province.

So there, and the productive days comes: the biggest activity and job for the organization i am part of. We help in orienting first year students and that went on for 10 days; wake up everyday at 4-4:30 leave home by 5-5:30 because we have to be in school at exactly 6 am; that was a very tiring week but also fun to think that i just stress and tire myself for something i won't get any benefit, no additional grades or money involve, it is full service and in line with that i realized something :


   We should not always do things for a concrete advantage; sometimes we just do things because we want to. we may not see a physical evidence or reward of doing something but there would always be a hidden advantage. With what i did, yes i got very tired, i looked huggard, i loose weight but behind all those i gained much more things. Life lessons you could never learn in other ways,  met new people, i gained friends, bonding with them, relationships and training that could be used for jobs in the future. It was fun fun fun. I also get to try varieties of food in KFC, ate A LOT (that's why i don't understand why i lost weight) and maybe i also get to touch other people and inspire them.

That summer activity was wrapped up with a culmi night where we had an activity, time to tell people how good they are, to tell them good stuff. After that i just get to appreciate myself even more. They told me how good i am, how they see me in their ways, they just told me alot of good words which i didn't really expect. I didnt saw myself doing good during that time but they saw it, the saw all my efforts and hardworks and i'm really thankful. sometimes we just want to get appreciated for all that we're doing. basta, that time tears just flowed.

i prayed for that organization, i prayed to be part of them and it was not and easy hing being there, i went a lot and it just make  me really happy knowing that they appreciate your work and see my efforts.

i love everyone from my org. :)

Things happen for a reason

I do believe that everything has a reason, every action, emotions, facial expression has a reason. People act the way they do not because it is innate with them (though there are some exceptions) but people has their own reasons. we would be mad to a specific person for doing a bad act, but really have you though of the reason why he had done that. Maybe you yourself had been an instrument why he has to do that bad act. Think about it.

I am not a perfect person, i blame people, i get mad but once in awhile these things goes through my mind, what may be the reason why they act that certain way. For example, as simple as this.. when i was young my mom would asked me to wear skirt or shorts and i do not want, and for them.. ang MANANG ko daw, but not really, i just see myself with big fat hairy legs kaya ayaw ko, if that would be small i would be more than willing to be in shorts. another thing.. in the show mara clara.. haha.. si alvira, is acting differently not because that is what she wants but she is just trying to use that pretending to be able to save her family.

I get mad, i question people but really i want to understand them. i am trying to, though it is really hard. i would want to find out why they act that certain way, may kasalanan ba ako, may nagawa ba ako. i want to understand people specially those whom i live with and those who are very close to me. So i just have to observe, understand them and maybe someday try to make a move and talk to them.

friendster

Kinkilig ako.. haha, i have been browsing friendster and it just makes me smile, reminisce the moments i had before.

We may find friendster a very lame social networking site already but we will never have facebook, twitter, tumblr etc. without it. I'm sure you all enjoyed using that social networking site as well. Friendster is a place to  tell a person how important he or she is. If now we have wall posts where we have simple conversations with people, before we had testimonial where we describe our friends or people whom we are not even close to, we tell them how good they are, whether they're pretty or whatever description we could tell about them and reading through my testimonials i just feel loved. i feel better about myself, (ganun pala ako) sometimes kulang din ako sa pansin, i want people to notice that's why i work hard, oo nga.. i just realize that characteristic of mine, one reason why I do things other than doing it because i want to and because i want to succeed in the future, i also want people to be proud of me.

Anyway, kinilig lang ako sa testimonials, people had been sweet, people said im pretty, im good.. well, testimonials that would require something back if someone gave you one so be sure that you would response and give him/her a testimonial too.. it evolved from description to graphics, quotes until it became a place where people simply communicate just as how we use our twitters and facebook.

friendster is fun. well, save your profiles now before it just crashed up this may 31, 2011 :)

HOLY WEEK

i just realize how much amazing people there are in the world. Working hard, sacrificing while almost everyone is resting and contemplating. Here in the Philippines we value the essence of Holy week, some treat it as their vacation, a time to go to beach, out of time and have fun with their friends or their families while some spend it as what is it really suppose to be. To do the usual Filipino Religious traditions. Maundy thursday and Good friday are holiday for everyone. Even the malls are closed, companies, school, even television networks who should usually have their shows to entertain people are having their breaks instead they just show replays or recorded shows. Everyone is resting but there are also those whom we have to salute and give our admirations.

Our doctors and nurses, people from the hospitals. No matter how they would want to have their break, they can't we could not control people's health. There woould always be somebody in the hospital that they have to give their assistance to.

Policeman and soldiers; their job is to keep everyone safe whether we're resting, doing our thing they are still on their duties during their job for the sake of the people :)

drivers- there may be less vehicles along metro manila now but there would still be some who would be willing to work during this holiday season to give transportation to different people.

We may not realize how special they are, they may just receive a very minimum income but they are the ones behind the scene working while we're all having fun.

To the doctors, nurses, policeman, soldiers, drivers, security guard, call center agents and everyone else who will be working this holy week. I salute you!!

(HOLY WEEK IS A TIME TO REMEMBER HOW LOVED WE ARE FOR OUR GOD GAVE HIS ONLY BEGOTTEN SON TO DIE ON THE CROSS AND FREE US FROM OUR SINS. THANK YOU FATHER!! )

FINALLY

Finally, now i have my own blog

i am not a writer, i don't usually write, I'm not a part of any journalism organization in school and was not even involved in any writing competition. But i am a very talkative person, maybe instead of writing i would rather tell it to my friends or just speak out until i realized that  not most of the time there could be someone listening to you, i also do not want the feeling where i constantly talk, sharing my stories my insights when actually the person does not want to listen anymore. and so i decided to write. I started writing in a facebook inbox, a diary more of a hidden blog, there i get to write things that i feel and those that i would want to share but sure enough no one could read it except for myself. I just don't have the courage to let people know or see my writings since i don't think i am really good at this. I just want to write to express.

But this summer break, I decided to make my own blog, people may not read it, it's okay. Well, i don't really care if someone would read it or not. I have been enjoying 3 weeks or 2?? of my vacation and still thinking if i should pursue this blog until i was able to open and read somene else's blog. and she just inspires me. Same purpose of writing..

"I only want to put away the voices in my head"-thezenofgen.

too much words on my head and i just want to release it out and so i have this :)